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September 25, 27, 28th, 2009
Santa Cruz, California
Received by FAB
I am here, Jack Kerouac.
I discovered over here the depths of my inability to be sensitive
to the needs of others. What loomed in my consciousness was my neglect
of my daughter Jan. It was truly horrible.
But I was a seeker, and in seeking, I found. My sins were not excused
- they were superseded by the grace of the Divine Love.
I read your thought. You are aware of how I treated others. You
also know of my alcoholism. So you are questioning your channeling.
Well, don't. My life is mine. And I did progress
out of the great darkness that greeted me. I was drowning, and
the Divine Love rescued me. Let that be the epitaph of Jack Kerouac,
and not the abuse of others and of alcohol that brought me to an
early grave and that guaranteed the darkness that I now see was
inevitable.
Every word you channeled of me is exactly what I said to you. So
don't doubt yourself. I did find happiness and peace in the Divine
Love because I was a seeker.
What awaited me when I first settled in here was inconceivable.
I had known before I died that I had gone wrong. But I never imagined
that everything I did and said would come back to me. It was a horror.
But along with my drinking and my callous disregard of others, my
soul was truly on fire for spiritual truth. Yes, that was as much
my reality as the life that went wrong.
A lifeline was thrown to me, and I held onto it tight. I am proud
of my passage from darkness to light. I had a will to do it, and
I did.
At first, it was impossible. Everything hit me at once. It was one
steady stream of memories that burned like fire. This I had not
anticipated.
As I told you previously, my Buddhist beliefs were not helpful.
What I was told about the Divine Love was.
So I am a living example of the fact, which this spirit world amply
demonstrates, that no matter how much darkness is in a man's soul,
God is able to redeem him.
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