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October 25th, 2006
Santa Cruz, California
Received by FAB.
I am here, Moses.
I come today, as promised, to discuss my inner life as a
mortal. I was a thinker - not a brooder, but a thinker.
This trait blossomed when I left Egypt in turmoil.
Of course, as you well imagine, my life as a prince was
not really conducive to deep and penetrating thought,
though I at times did reflect on many things. My nature
was to ponder things, but this was not really encouraged
when I was a young prince. I would not say I was spoiled
because I always had a good nature.
I perceived later in life how the difficulty and distress
that arose as a result of my fleeing Egypt actually
encouraged the development of many aspects of my
character, and I attributed all this to the Lord, who I
knew was working hard in my life for my own happiness.
It was the experience with the bush, what the Bible calls
the Burning Bush, that changed everything forever. When I
left Egypt, I had already had a glimpse of the Hebrew God,
since I had become acquainted in earlier times with the
way of thinking of the Hebrew slaves.
I would on occasion engage them in conversation. I thus
established not only a rapport with them, but also a
reputation of kindness toward them. This worked in my
favor when I returned to Egypt to liberate them. They
remembered my kindness and interest, and spread this
around. I attributed this to Divine Providence. I see now
that what was pushing me, as an Egyptian prince, to
inquire into the Hebrew faith, was a passionate desire to
know.
I was never shallow and superficial. I always saw the
depth of things, and in the back of my mind, I admired not
only the ideas and worldview of the slaves, but also their
integrity and courage in holding such views in such
difficult and dangerous circumstances.
The reigning Pharaoh actually did notice my propensity
toward reflection, and he devised ways to prevent this. He
felt that it could have been a threat, since my origins
were Hebrew and not Egyptian. But he loved me dearly as a
son because my nature was lovable. If he had had the
desire to nurture this part of my personality, he would
have done so. But as it was, I followed his lead, being a
malleable child and adolescent.
But this trait was mine, and when I was thrown upon my own
resources for the first time, that is, at the time I fled
Egypt, these qualities came to the fore. Thus, my career
as leader of the Hebrew slaves developed the best aspects
of my personality, many of which had been dormant as an
Egyptian prince.
As I progressed on my spiritual journey, God provided many
things to satisfy this desire to know. Of course, I did
not have the benefit of modern science and your
contemporary modes of thought. But the main thing I did
have was the Lord.
I found that I had a psychic nature, and this was the way
I related to Him. Through this psychic nature, I would
often inquire about many things, and God would invariably
answer each question by bringing me situations that
provided the answer.
Well, I will stop now.
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