January 18th, 2003
Received by H.
It was a completely new sensation...
During the day, when I longed to be in contact with
Judas, I felt his presence, and all of a sudden, an enormous package
of information flooded me. I say "flooded me," because
this information did not come in the form of phrases or sentences, little
by little, by drops, so to say, nor in a form of a conversation,
but as a torrent that made me feel dizzy.
What was going on? Had Judas changed his way
of communicating with me?
"It is an experiment," the voice said. "You are
right, it is a new form of communication."
"In some way I believe I know this sensation,"
I answered. "It happened when I perceived your thoughts that
seemed so clear and wonderful, but when I tried to capture them
on paper, so much got lost of their content. But now, it is not
a single thought, but many... a 'mental structure,' if I may put
it this way."
"That explanation is not bad at all," Judas explained.
"As you know, there are several ways to transmit messages.
Basically, what we have done so far is to communicate a thought
and to wait until you translated it into your language. Then we
send you the following thought, and so forth. This form of communication
allows us the possibility of correcting errors during message transmission.
When you receive something incorrectly, we can always correct it
in the following sentence that we transmit to you - of course, we
only do this when it is worthwhile; in other words, when the error
in the understanding of the medium is substantial.
The other method, which I have just used, allows us to transmit
a whole package of connected thoughts, an essay, as it were, a mental
composition. This has the advantage (for us) that it takes us very
little time to do so. On the other hand, it entails some danger
if the medium's reception is bad, and that during message transcription
the error multiplies, spreading from sentence to sentence, distorting
the message's entire meaning or content.
It would be impossible to transmit dates, names, and data this
way. Not impossible, perhaps, but very chancy, and I won't do it.
But when it is about a theoretical discourse, where the choice of
words that the medium applies in the transcription only influences
the style, or makes the message more or less readable, or gives it a
touch of finesse, but where the content of the message is quite
clear, and where there is no great danger of distortion, then it
would be very comfortable for us to convey messages this way. It
is a very elegant and quick way. Of course, for you the work will
be the same. You have to translate or to formulate thought by thought
into the respective language you write. For you it is not a time
saver, by no means."
"I understand this," I answered.
"However, I do not feel confident using this method."
"Neither did you feel confident with the other 'conventional'
method," Judas answered. "Only through practice did your
message reception became something habitual and normal, something
that no longer raises bigger doubts in you."
"Yes, you are right. I can well remember
my first tries in that regard," I agreed.
"Very well, then. So, I can count on your collaboration, should
I decide to use this new method, can't I?
"You know my answer. Of course you can,"
I answered him. "Still, I would like you to grant me the privilege
of rehearsing for a little while this kind of communication.
"Of course," Judas approved. "Therefore, I propose
to you the following. Sit down at the computer and write the message
just as you remember it. Try to reproduce it as faithfully as you
can. I will interrupt you to add my comments. Agreed?"
Here, then, comes my version of what Judas
had transmitted to me.
I saw a jumble of animals of all kinds. Among them,
I could make out my new dog, a cocker. I thought of how loving she
was, and reflected that many of the other animals could not awake
in me sensations of fondness.
"Oh yes," Judas interrupted me. "It
is difficult to fall in love with a scorpion."
Oh my, I was thinking exactly of a scorpion!
I understood that all those life forms that we regard
as disgusting or repugnant were necessary steps for the gradual
development of more advanced, more perfect platforms, and that it
was therefore not a proper attitude to consider them as useless
The human being, as the highest developed form of life
on this planet - the crown of creation, so to say -is only for now
the peak of creation, the climax in a development that obeys the
Law of Eternal Change. It would be impossible to imagine man without
the previous development of other life forms... at least in respect
of his physical nature.
"Exactly!" Judas interjected. "Of course, it is
possible to imagine man (I refer to the soul) without the physical
development and evolution on earth. But since we all spend some
time living on earth, it is very important to see human beings (souls)
in the context of other beings which live on earth."
This development of the "tree of life" with
its numerous ramifications we call "phylogeny."
It is interesting to observe how this phylogeny is
reflected in some way in the so-called ontogeny. Ontogeny, the individual's
development from the fecundated ovum until its natural death, parallels
in rough lines the development of life in general. The phases of
the fecundated cell, its division in blastomeres, the morula, the
blastula, up to the formation of a "primitive stomach",
the gastrula, and finally the development of the diverse specialized
body tissues can be observed in nature in the different living species.
In other words, the individual repeats the entire general development
of life until that stage which corresponds to it.
"You've got it!" ratified Judas. "I see that you
still remember well what you learned on embryology."
What I understood is that we can often observe this
kind of parallelism in God's work. Ontogeny parallels phylogeny,
and in a similar way, soul development parallels ontogeny.
Of course, the negative development of the soul is
not necessary, or even worse, desirable - I mean that development
which manifests itself in materialism, crime, etc. But even this
development has some positive influence - not over the individual
whose soul is so deformed, but over society in general, and should
it be only for highlighting the positive side of men that exists
even under the least favorable conditions.
During phylogeny, the non appropriate forms of life
become extinguished. During ontogeny, the individual does not become
extinguished, but passes through a constant process of development
from one phase to the next one, "overcoming" the present
deficiencies and "attaining to" a superior state of existence.
Of course, this process is automatic and does not imply the conscious
effort of the individual. Now, in spiritual development, or soul
development, the individual does not die either, but rather goes
through a process of development that finally will take it to the
highest possible degree. The "degeneration" of the soul
is nothing more than a deviation that ends in nothing, like a blind
alley. Sooner or later, the individual is forced to turn around
and get back from the wrong track, and to continue ahead along the
roads provided by God. There are many options, and all are valid.
Only those blind alleys lead nowhere. They are what we call "sin
The aforementioned " highest possible degree"
depends on the free and voluntary decision of the respective soul:
does it yearn for the presence of God from the bottom its being?
Does it desire His Love? If so, there is no limit to its development.
Does it only want to follow its course as a natural soul? Then it
will find the end of its development in the sixth sphere.
"Very well," said Judas. "You grasped it well. I
would only like to add a word or two on free will:
It is obvious that men enjoy free will in part of their decisions.
But actually, if the free will decisions contradict the Will of
God, they lead nowhere. They end in that blind alley, and sooner
or later man has to turn around and get back in order to restart
his progress. God's designs are designs of Love. He does not allow
anyone to get lost. The soul that chooses the wrong road does so,
because it does not know the consequences. It believes that it is
in control, but, as you know, it is not so. The "lost soul"
is a soul lost because of its ignorance, and God does not allow
ignorance to condemn His children. Men cannot lose their souls;
they cannot lose themselves. What they can lose is time... but lastly,
what does time mean anyway in eternity?
The little bird finds it difficult to break through its eggshell.
It takes time for its down to dry. Only slowly firm feathers will
grow, and it needs much food to develop muscles. The goal is to
Spiritual development also takes time and consumes energy. But
the goal is to fly. Even when we already know how to fly, we are
sometimes slack, our wings fail, and we fall. But the slacking and
falling are only symptoms of our immaturity, of spiritual childhood.
Carry on, and you will know the world from an upper perspective.
Height will entrance you, and especially that Sun of Love that constantly
waves to you to come closer.
With much love,
Your brother of always, Judas."