August 20th, 2001 (in the afternoon)
Received by H.
I was following Alfredos advice on how to relax,
with my eyes closed, when I saw this light approaching. I asked
myself why I could not see anyone. Was this light my guide? And
suddenly I saw the outline of a man. It was a black silhouette,
surrounded by bright light, like a counter light photograph. How
strange, I thought, I can see a person, but I cannot distinguish
who he is, its like he is hiding.
I want to show you that the less developed soul cannot see
the higher developed soul, I heard the voice saying.
I know, I answered, but I cannot
understand why this is so.
It is very difficult to explain. But I tell you that our
light is so great that we cannot even show ourselves to you as we
really are. Your eyes would get blinded. But your light is weak,
and we can distinguish each and every detail within you. You have
to obtain more light, little by little, getting acquainted, only
then you may see us as we are. This is a law. Whatever seems bright
to you today, will seem weak and dim in the future, whatever seems
like a flash of lightning, unbearable and inscrutable for your eyes,
will seem to you pleasant and normal in the future.
And then I saw his face, so real like a photograph.
He was skinny, his hair somewhat long, but not very, scarcely reaching
to his shoulders, covering his neck, the hair pitch black. It was
not combed forming a hairline, but brushed forward, concealing his
forehead. His eyes were not large but cheerful, yes, he looked at
me with a smile on his face, and his halfway opened mouth uncovered
his teeth. His nose was neither long nor short, but slim, as all
his slender face showed a fine bone texture. He also had a beard,
short and not very dense. He was young, maybe twenty-five, not older
than thirty, difficult to estimate. And his face began to deform,
like a caricature.
It is because your mind is playing tricks, he explained.
You dont know how to control it. But you will learn.
You are Judas, I stated.
Yes, and now you know me personally, he replied. Were
going to work together, he added, winking.
I saw him like one of those gawky youths, and he seemed
to be chewing gum (!), and with those almost uncontrolled and exaggerated
movements of his hands, as if he wanted to present himself as one
of those nonchalant young people, still idealists, which possibly
was his character when he lived on earth, but he said nothing. This
is only my impression, and he left me pretty confused, above all
his chewing gum.
And then, everything faded away. He was going away,
or I was going away. I think he said good-bye, but I am not sure
of this anymore.
Then I was alone again, with my heart beating terribly...