May 25th, 1920.
Received by James Padgett.
I am here, Nita.
I am so glad that I can write to you again. It has been a
long time since you let me write and I have been so anxious
to tell you of my progress and love. Why, Daddy, I thought that
you loved me so much that you would not keep me waiting so long
to tell you of my love and how happy I am, but mother told me that
you were not in condition to receive my message and that I must
wait until conditions are different and I understand, but thought
it strange that anything should interfere, to prevent me from writing
to my Daddy.
And now I want to tell you of my progress and how the love of the
Father has changed my soul so that now I am in a sphere from where
I may soon expect to go into the Celestial Heavens where mother
is. When I first came to spirit life (June 20th, 1918) as you know,
mother met me and took me in her arms and was so loving and tender
with me, that I had no fear, because of the change in my condition,
and with her were other beautiful and loving spirits who gave me
their love and assured me that now I would soon find a home that
was so different from my home on earth and would experience a happiness
that I had never before felt. And I was not afraid and did not want
to go with my body again as I was told so many newly arrived spirits
desire to do when they first come over.
I was satisfied from the first, and how could I not help being
so when I had such a beautiful mother to enfold me in her arms and
assure me that never more would I have to undergo the cares and
disappointments of an earth life. How glorious this was and how
I thought that if heaven should have all spirits as lovely and grand
as was here, what a happy place it must be. Mother was with me for
quite a while and also grandmother Padgett, who was also beautiful
and bright, and who told me that I had nothing to fear, but to believe
that I was in the truly spirit world when later I should find everything
to make me happy and contended.
But how badly I felt when the parting came, for you must know that
this parting was necessary. Mother lived in a higher sphere to which
I could not go and she could not remain with me all the time, as
I wanted her to do. But she told me that she would be with me quite
often to comfort and love me. That under the law I would have to
go to the place that I my soul fitted me for and from thence I would
have to pray and work for my own progress. That she could not determine
for me where I should live and that only my own souls condition
must fix my place and so as I say we had to part.
I soon found myself in some darkness and suffering and did not
quite understand why this should be so, or what was the cause of
my darkness, but after a little I found that my recollection of
my earth life came to me in wonderful clearness and that my conscience
was causing me some suffering. I was awfully lonesome and wanted
my mother so much, but found out that I had to bear my own burdens
and obey the laws that fixed my condition. I know you would want
to be with me if you could, to comfort and love me and protect me
from my sufferings, but this was impossible for this law that I
speak of, knows neither mercy nor forgiveness, until it is satisfied.
It is stern and unrelenting, and from the very necessity of things,
must be so, because only through its workings can a soul be made
purer and enabled to progress from its first condition. But thanks
to my dear mother I had with me the hope that such condition was
only for a moment and that soon the Love would come to me and take
me out of the workings of the law (Law of Compensation) and set
me free and enable me to get into light and more happiness. Oh!
how I prayed and prayed for this Love and tried to believe that
it would come to me and dispel the darkness and the recollections
of the evil things that I had done and thought when on earth. And
mother and grandmother prayed with me, and encouraged me with their
sympathy and love and the assurance that this love would come to
me and that the Father would answer my prayers.
While in this condition and on one occasion when I had been praying
with all my soul, and when my faith seemed stronger, there came
to me a beautiful spirit all tender and loving and said, my daughter,
the Father will hear your prayers and soul longing and call you
to higher service and brighter surroundings and greater happiness,
for I know that he never fails to answer the prayer of an earnest
soul and besides you are the very child of His Love and care and
nothing pleases Him so much as when His children call on Him for
His Love and help. And I am praying for you also and my faith makes
it certain that you will soon receive the answer, only let your
very soul breathe out its longings for His Love.
Oh! how beautiful and grand he was and how tender his love, which
seemed to flood all my surroundings and to give me such hope and
encouragement that I felt that I surely must be a little weary in
brain while he was talking. He then told me, that he was Jesus and
was so glad that I had come to the spirit world with so much love
surrounding me and also told me how he loved me and sympathized
with me and wanted me to get out of my darkness and into the light.
I cannot express to you how I felt as he talked to me and how I
wondered if he were not really God. But he could not be God for
he was so human and humble and seemed to think that he was a mere
child of the Father of whom he spoke. When leaving me, he said,
that he would come again and talk to me of the Father and His Love
and blessed me and said: "You are a child of our Father and just
as dear to Him as I am, and He loves you just as much as He does
me. Believe in His Great Love and you will be happy."
Well, daddy, you can imagine what my feelings were and how much
I was helped. I will not stop to tell you now of how this love came
into my soul, little by little, until at last it seemed to fill
my whole being. Oh, how happy I became, and how beautiful my surroundings
appeared and what beautiful bright spirits I found myself in an
association with. I was satisfied and my home became to me the most
glorious and happiest place imaginable.
But this was only the second sphere of which I have written, and
even that sphere surpasses all conception of man, and would satisfy
the most hopeful and extravagant man as his house of bliss. But
I continued to progress and more and more of the love came into
my soul, and strange as it may seem to you, as I rose higher and
higher, grandmother was with me so very much, became more beautiful
and glorious than ever before.
I understand now why that was. As she came to me in the different
spheres, and as I rose higher, she approached nearer her home and
took in more of the beauty and glory that are really hers in her
sphere of living. But I have written enough for tonight, and besides
you are tired.
Now I am happy beyond expression and love you with a greater love
than I ever had on earth, and know what love really is, and one
of the happiest things that I now have before me is to wait until
you come and meet you with all my love and goodness. Oh, daddy won't
it be glorious when you come over and we can all be together in
love. You thought that you had a beautiful Helen on earth, but when
you come to us and see her in her glory, your very eyes will be
dazzled at her appearance.
We are with you a great deal, loving you and trying to help you
and you must believe that we will never leave you, till you reach
the heaven where we now are. And not then if you want us with you. So
daddy, believe that I am your little Nita and that I write you and
love you with all my heart and soul.