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Received by:James Padgett
Washington D.C.
Give me your love and help. I am Kate Sprague:
I see that your sympathy is going towards us, and that your love
is calling us to come to you, and I want both, so much. So give
them to me. I am in such darkness and so much want the light. I
know that you can help me, and I pray you do so. I am a woman who
lived on earth under circumstances which robbed me of my soul, and
made me a brilliant and strongly intellectual woman. But love, how
it avoided me! And how my soul was starved! I only thought of acquiring
knowledge with which to make myself famous and make men and women
seek my society. Well, I succeeded, but what a shallow victory it
was in the light of what I know now; and how I have regretted time
and time again that my endeavors were turned to these things which,
in this world, I find have their limitations, instead of to the
development of love and my soul. The poorest spirit in all God's
universe must be the one without love and sympathy.
Since I have become a spirit, I have fully realized that my mental
acquirements are not sufficient to give me happiness, or place me
in the association of those beautiful and happy spirits which I
sometimes see pass by. I am in what is called the earth plane, and
my associates are spirits like myself, and without love or soul.
We are not very beautiful, because I have found that the mind, no
matter how excellent of itself, does not create beauty, and I wondered
when I came here why it was so; and now I know that the possible
mental acquirements that a mortal may obtain, as compared with all
the wonderful world of knowledge that exists in God's universe,
is as a grain of sand on the seashore - a mere nothing, as it were.
And when I came to this spirit world and found that my mind and
mental acquirements were so small and insignificant, and that I
was without love and sympathy, I felt poor indeed. And so will all
spirits who are capable of realizing that what they know in comparison
to what exists and may be known is as a mere shadow to a gigantic
mountain of substance and life. So you see, my importance on earth
became in the spirit world an insignificant nothing.
As I told you, men sought my society for the brilliancy of my intellect
and the pleasures of my mind, and asked for nothing more. My position
was a high one, as the world looks on such things, and many women
envied me and what I was. But it was all without substance - the
mere passing of a shadow. When I passed over, I was soon forgotten
and, in fact, had been forgotten some time before my death, because
great troubles came to me, and my mind no longer had the opportunities
to display itself; and I was really pitied for what had been and
for what I had fallen to.
So you see, on earth as here, the spirit who expects to find great,
lasting happiness merely in his mental acquirements will be disappointed,
especially if he realizes that the happiness which arises from the
exercise of the mental qualities has its limitations.
Well, I was married, but love did not enter into my marriage. It
was merely the marriage of a brilliant mind with position, to a
man of great wealth and position - nothing congenial but position.
I never loved money for money's sake. I did love position and had
aspirations that were never realized - and my disappointment was
great. But now, I don't want money or position or the flattery of
men - only love and sympathy; and I hope that you can tell me where
to find them.
I was C.S., and lived in Washington most of the time, and passed
over in 1894, and have been unhappy ever since.
When on earth, I had my sins the same as most mortals, and I am
suffering because of them now. Memory is with me and I feel its
lashings, and am unhappy; but somehow I feel that if I can only
get love and sympathy, I will feel better and happier.
Well, I had a love for one man, but he was another's, and I am
suffering now because of that sin. Oh, why was I so unfortunate
in life as to love only once, and that love forbidden to me! Yes,
I have met him here, but I find that my love for him was not of
the kind that lasts when the mortal becomes spirit. I do not love
him now, and never really did. It was of the earth, earthy. I am
waiting for a love to come to me, and his is a thing of the past,
never more to enter into my heart or soul.
Well, as a child, I was taught to believe in God and His love and
Jesus and the doctrines of the church, but after I became a woman
these beliefs left me. My mind became so great and my knowledge
so wonderful, that things of this kind had no place in my beliefs.
Oh, how wonderful is the mind of a woman who believes that what
she doesn't know has no existence! Such a fool was I, and now I
can't get that belief of my childhood again. If I only could believe
in God, and know that His love is waiting for me, how blessed I
would be. But that is gone from me forever.
Tell me, can you help me? Only tell me, and you will see how quickly
I will do what you say.
You say I know him, and he was a friend of my father and of me,
and is now a beautiful and happy spirit, with the love of God in
his soul, and will show me the way? Oh, I wonder who it can be!
Yes, many, and some are so beautiful and happy - they must surely
have the love and sympathy that I long for.
I am looking. Oh, I see Mr. Riddle, my old friend. How glad I am!
Oh, I am so fortunate, I know, for he tells me that he will help
me, and I am going with him.
So, my dear friend, permit me to say that I thank you so much,
and good night.
Kate Sprague
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