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May 16th, 1918
Received by:James Padgett
Washington D.C.
I am here, Charles T. Wilson.
Let me write a few lines.
I am the friend of the Dr. and knew him some years ago when he
was living in Buffalo, N.Y. I was in a hospital where he was engaged
in looking after daffy mortals, such as I was.
Well, in those days my mind and my brain did not coordinate, and
this I know, for a short time after I passed into spirit life I
found that I had a mind which enabled me to understand things as
I had before the awful blank came to me which resulted in my being
incarcerated in the hospital.
What a wonderful experience I had after I became liberated from
the imprisonment of my mind in a diseased brain. Then everything
appeared to me as if I were a new creature, and the happiness which
came to me - I mean the happiness that came from my liberated mind
- is beyond what you may conceive of. I can suppose that men think
that those whose minds are thus blotted out, as it were, by a brain
which has ceased to perform its functions must be not unhappy, because
they know not the loss of the benefits that a mind in a sound brain
affords. But in this supposition men are mistaken, for while the
person thus afflicted may not know of what sound-minded men call
real trouble and worry, yet they have troubles which belong to their
diseased brains, and to them these troubles, although they may have
no real existence, are just as real as are the troubles of these
others who think that they are sane. Trouble is a relative thing,
and the real to one, though not real, causes as much unhappiness
as do the troubles which are real.
Of course, while I was in the flesh I did not fully understand
just what my condition of mind was, and many of my vagaries were
of such a character as to cause me apparent happiness; and on the
other hand, certain other vagaries caused me real suffering. And
things of great importance appeared to me with a force that no real
existence could surpass.
Shortly after I passed to spirit life these imaginations left me,
and with them disappeared the unhappiness which they caused; and
it seemed to me as if my mind had been freed from a great burden,
and I became so conscious of the fact that it seemed as if I must
be in Heaven or some other place of bliss. But it meant nothing
more than my mind finding its real condition, and the recollections
of my previous life came to me with all their consequences. And,
strange as it may seem to you, there were no recollections of anything
that happened while I was in the state of mental darkness. Only
those things came to my remembrance which were parts of my life
before my affliction, and only these latter brought with them a
knowledge of good or evil deeds which I had committed.
Since then, I have realized the workings of the laws which controlled
my acts of life, and I was happy or otherwise as these laws called
for suffering or failed to operate. I have been in the dark planes
ever since, though I have made some progress towards the light,
or rather the darkness has grown less intense and my sufferings
have decreased. My mind has always been alert and nothing has escaped
me which was a part of my sane existence while on earth.
I wish that I could find a way to get rid of this darkness and
suffering, and as only a few nights ago I heard that you could help
spirits in my condition, I determined to seek your help, and tonight
when I saw the Dr. with you, I thought it a good opportunity to
ask your help.
Yes: and he says that he will help me, and as he is so very beautiful
and bright I can easily believe that he can help me, and I am going
with him.
So, I thank you.
I was Charles T. Wilson and was called Wash.
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