A Great Performer Shares Her Heart.
September 19th, 2008
Santa Cruz, California
Received by FAB
I am here, Judy Garland.
Oh, it’s so good to be appreciated! Some of us spirits like me retain a close bond with aspects of our earth lives. So thank you for loving my singing, etc.1
When I sang, I did feel I was singing to everybody. When I was up there on the stage, the audience felt like my family. I had experienced many disappointments and hurts in my life, but when performing, all that melted away, and I was doing my thing. And it felt just grand!
Oh, how I loved performing! It made me feel fulfilled and gave me a reason for being. It sustained me, and in an odd way, it also gave me a reason for going on living. Yes, that’s what I experienced. For no matter how severe my problems were, when I went out on the stage, they all temporarily melted away, and oh!, how I loved the love of my fans!
Well, all that is past. Life on this side is so different. The limelight recedes, and we are left with ourselves. I was not a bad person. I didn’t do really evil things, as some of my fellow spirits have done, so I thanked God that I was not stuck like them. But I did have my own issues. What I mean is, I didn’t kill people, but there were things I did that I had to account for. None of us can avoid this.
As I look back on my earth life, I realize I never found security inside myself. And I’ve noticed that very few people do. So as I adjusted to this new life, I realized it was a whole different ballgame. And when I was able to get a handle on what it’s all about, I began to actually feel grateful for this setup, which is so different from the earth life
It’s very, very impressive to me how we all wind up getting exactly what we deserve. Yes, that realization helps me be grateful to God. For I do believe in God now, and my religious convictions are getting stronger and stronger. I really didn’t bother with religion on earth, since it didn’t seem relevant to my life.
A life as a studio slave is nothing to envy. I endured much injustice. But I had a love of life which sustained me. Yes, I did falter, but I pulled back. I could very easily have wound up over here in a much worse condition.
I was just plain confused, and I lacked a focus, a direction. My performing was clearly what I was born for. That I knew. But as to a greater purpose for my life, that eluded me.
Judy Garland (born Frances Ethel Gumm; June 10, 1922 – June 22, 1969) was an American actress and singer. Through a career that spanned 45 of her 47 years, Garland attained international stardom as an actress in musical and dramatic roles, as a recording artist and on the concert stage. Respected for her versatility, she received a Juvenile Academy Award, won a Golden Globe Award, received the Cecil B. DeMille Award for her work in films, as well as Grammy Awards and a Tony Award. She had a contralto singing range.
After appearing in vaudeville with her sisters, Garland was signed to Metro-Goldwyn-Mayer as a teenager. There she made more than two dozen films, including nine with Mickey Rooney, and the film with which she would be most identified, The Wizard of Oz (1939). After 15 years, Garland was released from the studio but gained renewed success through record-breaking concert appearances, including a critically acclaimed Carnegie Hall concert, a well-regarded but short-lived television series and a return to film acting beginning with A Star Is Born (1954).
Despite her professional triumphs, Garland battled personal problems throughout her life. Insecure about her appearance, her feelings were compounded by film executives who told her she was unattractive and overweight. Plied with drugs to control her weight and increase her productivity, Garland endured a decades-long struggle with addiction. Garland was plagued by financial instability, often owing hundreds of thousands of dollars in back taxes, and her first four of five marriages ended in divorce. She attempted suicide on a number of occasions. Garland died of an accidental drug overdose at the age of forty-seven, leaving children Liza Minnelli, Lorna Luft and Joey Luft. (Source: Wikipedia)
1 The medium was listening to a CD of a live performance when this contact was made.