A Movie Star Goes from Darkness to Happiness.
May 19th, 2008
Santa Cruz, California
Received by FAB
I am here, Judy Garland.
What is fame? It can be torture. It can be elation. It can bring you up, and it can bring you down. But on this side of life, fame means nothing. It doesn’t accompany us - it stays behind.
As you have guessed, at first, my fate over here was not a happy one. In fact, when I first crossed over, after I was greeted, what awaited me was darkness. It took a while, but I have succeeded in getting into some light, at least to the point where the worst of it had changed. The abnormal pressures of my career had affected my soul. I did not have a clear view of anything really, and this confusion followed me here.
I could find really nothing to hold onto. I used to adore the cheers of the audience, but when I got offstage, there was very little awaiting me. So, logically, very little awaited me here.
After some time had gone by, I gradually saw my way to something larger, and as my soul progressed, I got past some of the darkness.
I now have a more elevated view of life, and happiness has come to me, a happiness that is not an instant high, but a sustained conviction and a greater and deeper awareness.
Judy Garland (born Frances Ethel Gumm; June 10, 1922 – June 22, 1969) was an American actress and singer. Through a career that spanned 45 of her 47 years, Garland attained international stardom as an actress in both musical and dramatic roles, as a recording artist and on the concert stage. Respected for her versatility, she won an Academy Award and a Golden Globe for her work in films, Grammy Awards and a Tony Award.
Despite her professional triumphs, Garland battled personal problems throughout her life. Insecure about her appearance, her feelings were compounded by film executives who told her she was unattractive and overweight. Plied with drugs to control her weight and increase her productivity, Garland endured a decades-long struggle with addiction. Garland was plagued by financial instability, often owing hundreds of thousands of dollars in back taxes. Married five times, four of her marriages ended in divorce. She attempted suicide on a number of occasions. Garland died of an accidental drug overdose at the age of forty-seven, leaving children Liza Minnelli, Lorna Luft and Joey Luft. (Source: Wikipedia)